Lonely but Never Alone
If I'm honest, one of the worst feelings I've ever felt is the feeling of loneliness. The details may be different from person to person... the loss of a loved one, being separated from close family/friends, or wanting someone to share your life with....but the result is the same. For me, being far away from family, coupled with the loss of my parents took it to a whole new level. I found myself one moment being just fine, then suddenly...
"Thoughts that flooded my mind would bring me to tears..."
I'd spent my whole life suppressing my emotions, because I hated how they made me feel out of control. In these moments though, I was forced to face my giants and not run from them but learn how to master them. I'm sure your next thought is "How did you do it?..." Well, trust me it's an ongoing process, but God reminded me the power of my thoughts/perspective and that it's more than half the battle. It's normal to feel lonely, but then you must on purpose remind yourself of the truth...
"He will never leave my side!..."
What does that really mean?...it means that if you invite Him to, He will always make His presence known when you need Him. In the moments when I'm crying, I've cried out to Him and asked Him to comfort me. It's an amazing feeling to be hugged from the inside out, and that's exactly how it feels! There are times when He sends someone to reach out to me in that very moment, who can comfort me with their words or with a Hug. If I had to summarize, from my experience walking through this space it is all about Balance....
"Feel it....Release it....Move Forward..."
1. Feel It - Be real with yourself and allow yourself to feel what it is you feel. Ignoring/suppressing it only makes it worse.
2. Release It - Cry it out!! Give yourself permission to shed some tears to release the pressure that has built up inside. (That's one of the reasons they are there)
3. Move Forward - Wipe your tears, blow your nose and focus on the things you have to be thankful for. Even when I miss my parents, I know that there is so much still God has placed in my life that I have to be thankful for...and so do you! :-)
"...And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”